pseudo-seizures

[Peace, Love and Pretzels]

Okay, am posting this for anyone who suffers from these.  I believe Chris suffers from these (I miss you Chris) and I am not certain, but I think Julia may as well.  Normally I would just contact them about this link but I am wanting to reach out to those of you that don't normally post on the board that may have them as well.  They are scary and although they may make you think that you are 'worse' because of them, they are actually the bodie's way of shaking off the trauma.  They are good.  After they have finished and you have recouperated.  Take solace in that....k? 

Here is a link to describe them.  I think I detailed one of mine in the posting about a party I had to attend a few weeks back.  I hadn't had one in a long time and thought it meant I was getting worse.  I have researched a ton on them and solidly believe they are good, not bad. 

http://ptsdme.blogspot.com/2005/12/ptsd-flashbacks-and-pseudo-seizures.html

The next link shows a polar bear being chased to be tranquilized and tagged.  Upon awakening he going through the necessary pseudo-seizure in order to release the trauma so that he can go on to live a normal life without having been negatively affeced.  An explanation is then given by a presenter as to why and how this pseudo-seizure takes place. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8u40WwqkOws

I hope this is helpful for at least some of you....


Hugs to all

andi

[Miele]

Andi

yes yes yes.
This describes these " events" to a tee.
People observing me that I was having a seizure. 

Thank you. Sorry for short post and my general lack of posting. Christmas has sucked me empty.  Glad it's over.

Julia

[Peace, Love and Pretzels]

More of these a couple of nights ago.  My friend was here, luckily.  He pulled me out.  Said he was going to stay the night because he felt it was not a good plan to leave me here on my own.  I would have to say that I agree with him.  I was a contorted, shaking, contracting, crying (silent tears which are the worst!), ball of bad.  It lasted for a couple of hours.  I was exhausted afterwards.  The next day I was good. 

[chris]

Im sorry you had a hard time, but I’m glad you had someone to help you through it. I wonder on occasion if things would be different for me if I had someone in my life that didn’t hate me.
I actually don’t have seizer type events as the girl described. I do get dizzy and I have lain in bed feeling I was unable to move. Dizzy and nauseous was a definite issue and at that time, had I been asked questions concerning orientation I may have failed for the reason that I was way too sick to be able to think.  I guess it’s part of a panic attack. I did have a few spells where I cried on my body was shaking, but I don’t think it was from PTSD. For me, I will get two to three things that seem to happen at the same time. From what I have heard people usually have one thing after another or maybe two things at once. Compound stupidity seems to creep up on me.

[Peace, Love and Pretzels]

Oh, Chris.  I can't believe that everybody hates you  I so wish you wouldn't talk about yourself like that.  Please?  Try and see that little girl (you) in front of you that you are directing those comments to.  You deserve such nice talk....not bad talk.....

Love and hugs,

andi

[chris]

Sorry Andi
I got compound stupidity from T and I may not have the gist of using it right yet. I also missed a word in it.  Compound stupidity is actually by others not me. I usually find I’m one of the few individuals that actually makes use of my intelligence.
When I was really sick back in September I was dealing with the piece of **Cleveland** lawyer , the dr. telling me I was losing touch because my head was killing me, the person that took me to the dr. was being a **Cleveland** Cleveland**, the Dr. Office wasn’t the best, I was attempting (unsuccessfully ) to get accommodations for my learning disability, and I couldn’t get anyone to do there dam job. That’s when everything just fell apart and I cried.  All those people just compounded the issues hence compound stupidity.

[Peace, Love and Pretzels]

I have been in exactly the same position.  Police didn't do their jobs, lawyers didn't do their jobs, psychiatrists, and so on.  I almost think THAT is what led me to the PTSD more than anything else.  The betrayal of the 'safeties' that we are led to believe exist.  Without those (and I no longer believe in them AT ALL), what protection do we really have? 

[Miele]

This is a really good topic.

The betrayal of those with responsibility to keep us safe.
Yes police, social workers, doctors, teachers.  Also extended family and neighbours.
They let us down almost as bad as the trauma itself.
The " system" in place doesn't provide the SAFETY net that it should. We are then further traumatized.
I agree this caused a huge part in my huge trigger that kicked the PTSD into play.
Good stuff andi.

[msdisenchanted]

watching the polar bear...tears on my keyboard....seeing the terror ...the place of one's own life and self determination taken....it is too much....hurts so much....i weep..

[chris]

Im willing to agree with that. I think if something happens, the reaction by those involved can either help or hinder the situation. If I didn’t have to deal with so many issues one after the other I would be a lot better. Some of the people that have let me down over the past few years have been cops. It’s odd given my dad’s are cops, for me that makes things even more difficult to deal with. I’ve spent more than 10 years hanging out around cop’s and then it only takes one stupid one. Of course I dealt with numerous stupid ones.