Sometime during my senior year of high school I devolved a fear of crowds and of people in general. It got to the point where I would have anxiety attacks every time I went out side. I didn’t travel alone. I wouldn’t go anywhere unless I knew the area real well. Things have gotten better in recent years. I forced myself in the situations where I was around a lot of people. This made is so I could be around them and not have an attack. My therapist has me go bowling now once a week where she makes me interact with those around me. I know that this will help me but its I just don’t trust people enough to walk up and say hello. The internet is a wonderful thing in which I never have to leave my house unfortunately I have to learn to interact with people better so I can have a healthy family. And buses, trains and airports still bother me at this point
i could have written that exactly the same .. apparently very common in souls like us, its when you have a family that its hard and this has FORCED me to stp out of the comfort zone a bit-- only possible with lorazepam though, to start but now it depends where i am going as to whether or not i need it
