So i have this small problem with traveling

[Akaichan]

Sometime during my senior year of high school I devolved a fear of crowds and of people in general. It got to the point where I would have anxiety attacks every time I went out side. I didn’t travel alone.  I wouldn’t go anywhere unless I knew the area real well. Things have gotten better in recent years. I forced myself in the situations where I was around a lot of people. This made is so I could be around them and not have an attack.  My therapist has me go bowling now once a week where she makes me interact with those around me. I know that this will help me but its I just don’t trust people enough to walk up and say hello. The internet is a wonderful thing in which I never have to leave my house unfortunately I have to learn to interact with people better so I can have a healthy family. And buses, trains and airports still bother me at this point.
-Akai

[Peace, Love and Pretzels]

I can totally relate to your post - I am the same way at this point.  I want to clarify though that most of my life I was not this way.  I wonder if perhaps you understood that i isn't necessarily a 'core you' thing - but instead it is a symptom of your mistrust - whereever that mistrust may come from (usually past neglect/abuse). 

I have learned to make sure that I spin conversation to other's lives - not my own.  I ask them questions about themselves.  People generally love to talk about themselves.  Or sometimes I just throw out a general (although honest) compliment about something that struck me about them.  I am sure with practice you will learn how to become more comfortable with others.  I know that my discomfort with others at this point is about them asking ME something as I feel that my life circumstances are toxic right now and I don't want to share it.  Is there something in particular that you can focus on when you say you 'mistrust' others?  Can you picture yourself in a scenario where that mistrust plays out?  What would be happening?  What would they do to breach that trust?  Might help you in your journey...

Take great care

andi

[Miele]

Sometime during my senior year of high school I devolved a fear of crowds and of people in general. It got to the point where I would have anxiety attacks every time I went out side. I didn’t travel alone.  I wouldn’t go anywhere unless I knew the area real well. Things have gotten better in recent years. I forced myself in the situations where I was around a lot of people. This made is so I could be around them and not have an attack.  My therapist has me go bowling now once a week where she makes me interact with those around me. I know that this will help me but its I just don’t trust people enough to walk up and say hello. The internet is a wonderful thing in which I never have to leave my house unfortunately I have to learn to interact with people better so I can have a healthy family. And buses, trains and airports still bother me at this point

i could have written that   exactly  the same .. apparently very common in souls like us, its when you have a family that its hard and this has FORCED me to stp out of the comfort zone a bit-- only possible with lorazepam though, to start but now it depends where i am going as to whether or not i need it

[chris]

sorry a bit of topic but milie have you ever got clingly and wanted to lay on someone when you took lorazapam. i took 4 miligrams so it may differ. gust currious as i had never experianced it befor that.