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« on: February 07, 2010, 08:33:55 am » |
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My heart Is broken.
I am crashing hugely.
When will I ever learn not to trust my " reactions"
it's all too late. I hit bottom again need to claw my way back up only now I do it alone. It seems impossible to me.
I hate PTSD I hate ad. I hate my immediate self saving reactions.
Never again will I love anyone. Never ever ever.
This pain is far far far too much to bear
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« Reply #1 on: February 07, 2010, 10:29:08 am » |
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(((((((Miele)))))))
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« Reply #2 on: February 07, 2010, 11:34:10 am » |
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thank you p of I .
its utterly totally my fault. i am a reactive piece of junk
i hare what ptsd and ad makes me hate hate hate.
in turn that makes me hate myself , trying to exert some control over this seems to be out of my control
i just continually start my life again from scratch each time i sabotage it completely.
frankly had enough of that now
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« Reply #3 on: February 07, 2010, 02:53:35 pm » |
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So sorry honey.
You will get through this- you will.
You will be the whole and wonderful person that comes across to us again.
She is in there. We all see her and love her.
That is you. Ready and waiting.
I am thinking of you,
love and hugs
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« Reply #4 on: February 07, 2010, 07:35:56 pm » |
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Sorry you’re having a hard time. I know it sucks now, but we have all been there. You will try again and maybe next time it will work. People are basically pack animals. In most cases we will gravitate to others. It will take a while, but you’ll be ok.
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« Reply #5 on: February 09, 2010, 04:28:45 pm » |
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so i cm back to life today thanks to certain particular events and people.
one thing i have noticed is that my downs are shorter than before, much shorter.
my diss much less prevelant, so again i feel strong, thank you for all your support,
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« Reply #6 on: February 09, 2010, 07:44:35 pm » |
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so i cm back to life today thanks to certain particular events and people.
one thing i have noticed is that my downs are shorter than before, much shorter.
my diss much less prevelant, so again i feel strong, thank you for all your support,
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« Reply #7 on: March 13, 2010, 12:59:42 pm » |
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so i cm back to life today thanks to certain particular events and people.
one thing i have noticed is that my downs are shorter than before, much shorter.
my diss much less prevelant, so again i feel strong, thank you for all your support,
 Dear Miele, I am new to board but send my hugs and best wishes. I am so happy to have found this space....for more than 20 years I have been alone in my own 'stuff' and find your posts so validating and healing...alone really sucks...hang in there and know that you..your life has touched the hearts of others in a meaningful way...all is not futility... I am so glad to have fond this group and its members  . |
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« Reply #8 on: March 13, 2010, 02:35:21 pm » |
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msdisenchanted. ( cant quite think what to shorten that to)
your timing is impeccable,you thoughts and kindness so well received, thank you thank you.
yesterday i had lost ALL faith in humanity , totally and utterly, my days were full of such huge pain i couldnt bear it at all. today i log on to see if my account has been deleted and i saw your posts, see perfect timing.
i am SO glad that my posts mean something to someone, and that at least there is a small amount of sense and understanding to others, so even if they do not feel so alone..
i am sorry however that you can relate to my posts, NO one should have to feel this pain, but is totally clear to me that you do and understand
i am very pleased to have you here on this forum , it is the most amazing place with a great group of people that truly understand these issues. i have learnt so so so much ( still learning ) and this place and these people are mostly trying so hard to fix their own issues, yet still give time to others.. i hope you find that this is that place you have been searching for..
i would love to hear more about you, we seem to have a lot in common..
xxxx
julia
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« Reply #9 on: March 13, 2010, 02:38:40 pm » |
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« Reply #10 on: March 13, 2010, 02:44:10 pm » |
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msdisenchanted. ( cant quite think what to shorten that to)
your timing is impeccable,you thoughts and kindness so well received, thank you thank you.
yesterday i had lost ALL faith in humanity , totally and utterly, my days were full of such huge pain i couldnt bear it at all. today i log on to see if my account has been deleted and i saw your posts, see perfect timing.
i am SO glad that my posts mean something to someone, They truly do! and that at least there is a small amount of sense and understanding to others, so even if they do not feel so alone..
i am sorry however that you can relate to my posts, NO one should have to feel this pain, but is totally clear to me that you do and understand
i am very pleased to have you here on this forum , it is the most amazing place with a great group of people that truly understand these issues. i have learnt so so so much ( still learning ) and this place and these people are mostly trying so hard to fix their own issues, yet still give time to others.. i hope you find that this is that place you have been searching for..
i would love to hear more about you, (i will post my bio in a new thread)we seem to have a lot in common..
xxxx
julia
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« Reply #11 on: March 14, 2010, 12:11:11 am » |
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Julia, so sorry you suffered so yesterday. Misdis, thanks for being here for my friend....your posting was lovely and so sincere. We love having people here like you. Warmth, compassion and sincerity are things that we, in particular, have been lacking in. Welcome, with open arms
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