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[DancingGirl]

Hi My name's Leanne, I'm 26. Diagnosed with RAD as a child and all kinds of behavior problems. I was taken from my mother when i was about 2 and bounced around in foster care until I was adopted by my bio moms counselor who had her own bag of problems and" gave up on me by the time I was three." Words straight out of her mouth. So needless to say I have no bond with anyone in my life. I adapt to new environments almost too easily on the outside because I've had to forever. I already have been divorced and in another relationship thats just circling the drain. I've hurt everyone I know repeatedly. I can't get close to anyone and sometimes although I think my faith is the only thing keeping me here and hanging on, even that suffers because of the immense amount of pain I have stuffed down. I used to be just bitter and angry. Now i just let people abuse me and walk all over me and give what I dont have to begin with to get nothing in return. I have also been diagnosed with bi polar but i am skeptical although i will not stop taking the medication because i know the possible consequences. I came here hoping to find hope and to feel like I'm not alone in this battle because I feel so misunderstood by everyone all the time and most counselors dont even have a grasp on how to deal with attachment disorder. But i refuse to go another day letting this ruin me and who I was created to be.

[happygounlucky]

Hi Leanne, I just want you to know that you have totally come to the right place. I found this site 5 days ago and it has helped me soo much already. I'm 25 and have strugged with attachment issues for 20 years. My past inncluded history of neglect and substance abuse by my family. I can honestly say that i have never felt more supported  than being here. Talking about your problems is the best way to begin to learn how to overcome them. This is the only place i have ever felt 100% accepted and i hope it will feel the same for you. You have strength which is amazing to hear considering what has happened in your past. I hope you continue to stay strong and i hope this site will benefit you as much as it has me already.
x

[serenity1953]

Bless you, Leanne!
You have come to the right place! Here you will NOT be alone. There are many who will support you, talk with you, and keep you in their thoughts.
Stay and spend some time. Go at your own pace. You will be encouraged, loved, respected, and maybe challenged.....but never pushed. You will find empathy and understanding and not pity and judgment. It is a good place. There are those who work to keep it a safe place.
 
Seems to me you have an important piece figured out.  "But I refuse to go another day letting this ruin me and who I was created to be."
Hang on to that.

Blessings, serenity

[chris]

Its nice to have you hear.
Yea, a lot of people just don’t understand counseling for anything. it sounds as though you have a decent grasp of what has occurred in your life, and you are taking strides to get there. We can definitely offer you support and information. I hope you enjoy the site.

[serenity1953]

Thinking of you, Dancing Girl. serenity

[Silver]

I came here hoping to find hope and to feel like I'm not alone in this battle because I feel so misunderstood by everyone all the time and most counselors dont even have a grasp on how to deal with attachment disorder. But i refuse to go another day letting this ruin me and who I was created to be.

Dancing girl, I just love that name. I have been smiling everytime I read it. Leanne, I am new here too and I have the same hope you have. So how about we hook up and learn about this together. Smiling at you, mrssusie